Monday, August 24, 2009
Congratulations to the two other newlyweds!
May you guys have a blissful marriage.
Hope for the best for you guys forever and ever.
Finally things are back to normal.
Lysander and me,Helena and Demetrius,Helena and me.
Lysander and I finally got married,we even got father's approval in the end.
He only wanted the best for us.
He just wanted us to realise that marriage is not an easy thing,we have to overcome many obstacles to be with our one true love,to finally have a happy ending.
Helena finally got what she longed for.
Helena and me are finally on good terms,I'm very glad that we are okay now.
Helena,I'm really proud and happy for you.
Let's not let any guy or anyone get in the way of our friendship again.
It's far too precious to let anyone tear our friendship apart.
I've got to go,the carriage is here.
Off to meet my love.
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Lysander,why have you changed?
Did I do anything wrong to make you hate me,to make you treat me like I'm just some girl that you can have a fling with and just throw me away like that?
I have done nothing wrong,nothing that I can think of.
I've always loved you,I've never doubted our relationship,I've always believed in you.
Why are you making things more complicated than it already is?
I don't understand why you would insult me,why you went after my bestfriend and dumped me just like that?
You know better than anyone else that I don't like people who mock my height,my skin.
I don't like being compared to others,you knew that but you still kept hurting me like it didn't matter to you whether I was hurt or not.
Why have you turned so cold,so cruel,why don't you protect me anymore?
Why didn't you defend me when Helena insulted me?
Where is the Lysander I know and love?
Where has he gone to?
And Helena,I never wanted any guy to ruin our friendship,I tried my best to make things better,I really did but...
I can't stand it that you betrayed my trust by telling Demetrius of my plans to elope with Lysander,
I can't stand it that you didn't care about my feelings,what happened to you Helena?
You talk about me not being good friend,accused me of seducing Demetrius,you talk about how we've been friends for so long,we were so close,that I am heartless for humiliating and mocking my bestfriend by using the guys that love me to make a joke out of you.
Why don't you look at yourself,how much you've changed.
What have you become,Helena?
Yes,we were so close but drifted apart after you broke up with Demetrius.And you started chasing after him and I stopped you because I didn't want any guy to hurt you.You didn't listen.Your whole life has been about Demetrius,please look at yourself,you deserve better or at least you should let Demetrius chase after you because you are the best,he should be putting effort into getting you not the other way around.
Helena,I'm sorry if my words hurt you but I'm just telling you the truth since you're my bestfriend.
I want us to be okay,I want everything to be okay,back to how they're supposed to be.
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I'm so worried about you Lysander,where are you?
Why did you leave me so abruptly?
Didn't you promise me that you'll be my side forever?
Where are you now,my love?
Why did you break the promise that I hold so closely to my heart?
Lysander,please come back.
Demetrius,you scoundrel.
How could you take my one true love away from me?
What did I ever do wrong to deserve any of this?
Please,tell me.
Was it because I chose Lysander over you?
Was all this about my decision after we graduated from college?
If that's the case,I'm sorry if I hurt you.
I didn't mean to,you were my bestfriend's boyfriend,the one she loved,the one she adored.
How could I do that to my bestfriend,the one person who has been there for me all this while?
I could never let myself be with someone so ignorant,selfish and egoistic as you.
I do not like you,I do not love you.
Never was in love with you,never will be.
So please now that I've apologised,give me back my Lysander.
Please I beg of you,give me back my Lysander.
the power of love.
Sunday, August 23, 2009
I woke up from my sleep to realise that Lysander wasn't at his sleeping area, but indeed i saw Demetrius. He has killed Lysander! He's a murderer! He has killed the guy I love so much! I am not going to forgive him ever.
But yet, he refused to admit what he'd done. Such a pretender! He looked so dead and so grim that I suspected already he has killed my Lysander, my love. Lysander is more true to me than the sun is to the day. Lysander loves me with all his heart and he doesn't betray me. I love him so much and any girl who has him is going to be happy to
have a guy like him. And now, Demetrius has killed Lysander. He has ruined my happiness. Oh why? Why oh why? Why must I face all of these? I believed that a true love has many obstacles but why until Lysander has to be killed by Demetrius? This is tuly unfair to me. All of these is Helena's fault. She's the one who made Demetrius follow us
to the woods and made Demetrius killed my love. Lysander, why do you leave me without even saying goodbye? I can't survive without you by my side. You are my power of love. You are strength in me, you give me happiness that no guy can ever give to a lady. I love you so much, Lysander. And I'm not going to forgive all those evil people who doesn't
accept our love and try to separate us. But I know we can never be separated for you give me the power of love.
troublemaker.
I totally don't understand what is wrong with Helena. By right, can't she realise that I'm acutally giving her the opportunity to get back her Demetrius but it seemed that she doesn't want to accept the opportunity that I gave to her. She could actually get Demetrius back because Lysander and I is going to leave Athens but I found out that Helena has told Demetrius our secret. Urggh ! Now, Demetrius is following me and Lysander to the woods, and Helena is following Demetrius ! And the four of us is going to be in the woods together ! Helena is weird. She thinks that by telling Demetrius our secret, she would earn credit and that Demetrius would love her again.But, she has actually spoiled me and Lysander's plan. Why is she doing this to me? Had she not be grateful that I'm trying to make Demetrius get back with her after my runaway from Athens ?
Ah, Helena you're making the situation worst. Now, Demetrius is so going to look for me and Lysander in the woods and chase us from behind. All thanks to you, Helena. You've got to regret what you've done.
pursue of happiness.
I must confess that I love Lysander so much that I decided to follow his
words. Yes, to run away from Athens. Lysander has a widow aunt,a dowager and
she has no child. We both shall run away from Athens secretly and leaved at Lysander's
aunt's house. Tomorrow, I shall meet Lysander at the usual place we always meet.
But before that, we decided to tell Helena our secret plan. When Helena came to us just now, she seemed a little bit upset. She was weird too because she kept on saying bad things about herself and point out all the differences between me and her. Oh my god, what's wrong with her? I mean, everyone is special in their own way, right? She kept on having the perception that love is unfair to her. Demetrius, the guy that she loves so much has now fall for her best friend, which is me. I felt sorry for her and I think that her tears are not worth for a guy like Demetrius, who doesn't love her truly with all his heart. And Egeus is asking me to marry him? Me? Marry Demtrius?
The guy who hurts my best friend's feelings just because he likes me after he
met me? What if I get married with him and soon when he found himself another lady, he'll definitely going to leave me and marry that lady ! I shall never marry him at all because I don't love him and I shall rather pursue my love and happiness with Lysander, the guy that loves me truly and appreciate me for whoever Iam. I love Lyander.
the course of true love.
I am screwed, I really am. Unless we elope. Like what my love,Lysander suggests. I do agree with that decision,actually. I mean, afterall, we do not have any other options. I know that we would be breaking the Athens law by this. But what of it? After all, I would get to spend my life with my love,my all Lysander. I get happy just thinking of it. We could live with his rich aunt, he says. Oh am I glad that Lysander thought of this. This,I know,is true love. The course of true love never did run smooth. Many obstacles would be faced by true lovers. And hence,we,me and Lysander,us, have true love. Oh I cant wait.
The only person we have told of our plan to elope is Helena,my bestfriend. I know she wont tell a soul though.
Speaking of Helena,she has been acting weird lately. With all this talk about her not being fair. Seriously speaking,she does not see herself very clearly. She is beautiful and she should know that. I know that all this may be the cause of her breakup with Demetrius recently. But ah,that inconsistent man. He is not worth crying over.
Anyway, my head is too filled up with thoughts of Lysander to worry about anything else. My Lysander. He makes me happy so.
deary me.
What? Now Father wants me to marry Demetrius instead of Maximus? Demetrius? How could my father do this? My own flesh and blood. Besides,shouldnt my affairs be of my own concerns? And yet,father insists that I marry Demetrius.
What shall I do? Marry the man that betrayed my bestfriend,the man that broke her heart.
What in the world? And yet-if I do not comply I have to face terrible consequences. But Lysander. My love,my everything. What about him? Why shouldnt I be able to marry someone I love rather than someone who I do not? This disgusts me. This,this is unfair.
Theseus,the Duke said I had only three choices.
First-To marry Demetrius. Second- Go to nunnery. And third-Face death.
I've decided that I do not care.
I shall go to nunnery or face death if thats what I have to do. I wont marry Demetrius. I wont,and I just cant. I dont want to be in control of someone I do not love.
I cant believe my father did this to me. Afterall,what does Demtrius have that Lysander does not? Status? Wealth? Good looks? Good Lord. Lysander has all of those,if not more. In fact-in fact Lysander has something more-my love. Isnt that all that counts? My heart's with Lysander. And no one,especially not Demetrius can take that away from him. Not for nothing.
oh bummer.
The meeting between Father and Lysander sucked! Sucked I tell you!
Father was ignoring Lysander all along. Father sulked all teh way through dinner! Whats wrong with him?
Lysander was putting in the effort to actually come up with conversations, but Father ignored!
I can't take this anymore, if Father dissapproves he didn't, shouldn't have acted the way he did.
Father is being self-centered again, I bet he expected me to be with that Mrs Flinch's son, Maximus. Oh no no no, I will never get together with that selfish, egoistic, skinny man!
Since I have been declining Father's offers of being with the man he chooses, he'd probably go running to the Duke for help! So now the whole of Athens would now about our little family problem!
Why can't Father see Lysander in my eyes?
Why can't Father understand the way I feel?
Why isn't Father at least try to be happy when Lysander's around?
Why oh why?
In love.
Sunday, August 16, 2009
Lysander.
My love. My all.
I still remember the first day we met. In class, on our first day in college. I never really bothered noticing anyone, but somehow, Lysander caught my eye. We were in the same class- Me, Lysander and oh yes, Helena, my best friend. Lysander was funny, dashingly handsome, tall and romantic. It was definitely love at first sight. I still remember the times I rejected Lysander when he asked me out, 6 times to be exact. Lysander was persistent, he never gave up and I finally relented. I never really expected anything on the first date, really. I was abit scared, nervous. I never actually went out on a real date before. I felt abit dumb, Lysander would probably have gone out on a thousand of dates before and our date wouldn't be anything special but to me, it was. It was a first date I would never forget. It was the only time I think I felt free. Being with Lysander, made me feel free. I was happy, indeed. Days after our first date, I found myself spending alot of time with Lysander. I sort of neglected Helena, but she was having her own fun with Demetrius. Oh yes, I forgot to mention. Demetrius was one year our senior at that time, and he had a personal interest in Helena. Good for her.
I found myself spending alot of time with Lysander, I wasn't sure if it was good or not, or whether Father approved. But I didn't care. I liked being around Lysander, no one's gonna take that feeling away from me.
So now I have made my decision, its been almost a year and a half that we have been together, its time for Lysander to meet my father, Egeus.
That day is tomorrow, I'm not sure how I'm supposed to feel but I'm excited. So excited.
I hope everything goes well. *crosses fingers
